I've now seen 'Perverse Instantiation, Part Two', the finale of season three of The 100!

I mentioned in my last entry that Murphy reluctantly happens to be present for a lot of fucked-up stuff, and I think 'hey, Murphy, I need you to reach into this teenage girl's wrenched-open chest and pump her heart with your hand' is the most fucked-up thing he's been landed in yet. Poor Murphy. It's always you. If you weren't so entertaining when you hate your situation, maybe the writers wouldn't keep putting you in situations you hate.

(This is not, if you're wondering, something that my taste for blood extends to. I like (fictional) wounds; I don't like surgical incisions; I really don't like people putting their hands inside other people and touching their internal organs.

You... probably weren't wondering. Rei's taken to asking me, 'So, is this good for you?' whenever someone's bleeding or in pain in something we're watching, and I think by this point I just answer the question automatically even if Rei isn't asking it.)

Okay, Lexa showing up in the City of Light was fantastic and immediately made me buy twice as hard into the entire Lexa and Clarke/Lexa storyline. I'm glad to be into it at last!

Clarke and Lexa running around inside a computer program and running into a literal chain-link fence and Lexa going 'IT'S A FIREWALL' was very, very funny, as was Raven hacking a literal door into the program and Jasper preventing Clarke from entering by physically standing in front of it. COMPUTERS.

I got a little tearful at the scene between Clarke and her mother at the start of the episode, when Abby regains consciousness and remembers she's been torturing Clarke. She's so broken up about it. Abby's actor does a really good job; I feel her scenes always hit the right note for me, whether she's actual Abby or terrifying emotionless mind-controlled Abby.

Kane's horrified expression when he comes back to himself and realises he's strangling Bellamy is also so good. And then Kane starting to sob and Abby going to hold him and Kane just crying into her shoulder was everything I needed from the end of this storyline.

I still can't believe I got into this show for teenage suffering and then went 'actually, forget all these teenagers, all I really care about is the relationship between these two people in their mid-forties.' I've written two fics for this teenage misery show without a single teenager between them! One of the fics isn't even slightly messed up! I don't know who I am any more.

(Riona: I got a comment on my fic saying 'This was so cute and nice!!' and I'm holding on to it as EVIDENCE that I can write non-horrible things.
Ginger: ...sounds fake but ok)

Weirdly, I think only one member of the original 100 died in the entire season, so we're still on The 45.